My Story
Listening inward, trusting the light within
"Still yourself. Quiet your mind. Embrace the peace
that I offer. Allow yourself to feel my presence."
I didn't set out to build Light Your Own Path — it unfolded slowly, as I learned to list and trust the quiet voice inside of me. This is the story of how I found that voice, and how it began to guide me home to myself.
I’ve struggled with religion and the idea of a Higher Power for pretty much my entire life. I've been to different churches, tried to read the Bible, poured over books on spirituality, binge-watched interviews with different religious and spiritual leaders. I looked everywhere, sometimes desperately, to see a sign of the existence of a Higher Power, the God that so many willingly, wholeheartedly, seemed to put their faith in. But I rarely, if ever, found it.
I so wanted to have some proof that something greater than me existed in the Universe.
Not just in the abstract, but in the concrete, in my life. I wanted reassurance and guidance and answers to things that I couldn't seem to find anywhere from anyone. After years of searching and not finding, I began to believe that if this Higher Power wasn't presenting itself to me, it meant that I wasn't good enough to receive its love.
I was filled with shame, convinced that because my faith was lacking, it meant that I was lacking too.
I spent decades carrying the burden of this secret, feeling – no, knowing - that I would never be enough to earn unconditional love and acceptance.
And then, quite literally, by the grace of God, a friend shared with me his experiences in meditative journaling. I was captivated by the messages that he shared, and intrigued by the idea that I could also tap into my own Higher Power.
Because the one who wasn't listening was me.
Although at first I struggled to tune out the chatter both outside my head and in, I pretty quickly began to hear a faint whisper of something else - a Universal wisdom that brought with it a steady stream of positivity and reassurance and unconditional love.
What a humbling experience to realize that after all the years of feeling abandoned and forgotten, this Higher Power had been with me, had never left my side. Every time I had cried out in anger and frustration, “Why aren’t you listening to me?! Can’t you hear me?!” I was pointing the finger in the wrong direction.
